fuck.

i am so fucking sick of feeling like people are fucking control my god damn fucking life. i am so fucking sick of being fucking nagged. i am so fucking sick of not feeling good enough, that i dont messure up. i am so fucking sick of being threatened by people. i am so fucking sick of my fucking school work hurtin because im afarid to say fucking no. do people not fucking understand that i have fucking work to do?!?!??!?! fuck i am so fucking sick of being fucking nagged. like fucccckk my life, just leave me fucking alone!!!!!!!!! stop being so fucking neeedddy, its so fucking pathetic and i hate it! fuck my life i hate it fuck fuck fuck. i feel like im not good enough or smart enough to be here. its like whatever i learn, it doesnt absorb into my brain. i dont feel pretty enough to be liked by anyone here. i feel like people judge me based on the way i look. im fucking sick of my fucking need to be wanted and loved. im sick of my phone vibrating. im sick of distractions. im sick of not being happy with what i have in life. im sick of so many things right now. im going to end up screaming at someone. im sick of hugging people and acting like i give a fucking about them. hugs are sickening me. fuck fuck fuck. i dont want to hug anyone anymore and act like i give a fuck. this smile is hurting, its starting to get fucking tired. i feel like cursing. im siiiiiccccccccckkkkkkkk of trying soooooooooooooo hardddddd...........its EXHAUSTING..........SO...........EXHAUSTING. playing this act, this act of this girl......this second person i have that i play.....its like my second ego. she is so tiring. i want not to give a fuck. but i care so fucking much. i want to just want this to be effortless............. im sick of lying.......lying to you and lying to him and him and him and him and you and you and you and soooo many fucking people.. and them..... and to myself. im tired of lying. i want to tell the truth, without being fucking ridculed for it because im always fucking ridculed for EVERYTHING I FUCKING DOOOOOOO
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SO FUCKING MAD UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE PATHETIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOP TELLING ME WHAT IS RIGHT AND WHAT IS WRONG I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dasdsadsahdsahdfsadb UUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHHH I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF ANYMORE IM SICK OF TELLING MY FUCKING STORY, WHY CANT I BE HAPPY WITH WHAT I HAVE?! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
that is what is going on in my head, right now.
fuck.